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What We Planted

BY CHELSEA B. DESAUTELS

Everything takes time. The Sweet

Joe Pye Weed we planted four years ago

is reseeding only now.

Nearly summer in Minnesota

and the air is full of wildfires

from another country. I keep my daughter

inside. I keep myself inside.

All the pointed leaves catch smoke.

And the dog stirs. I keep longing

for a life I’d imagined I’d have but don’t

ask me what, exactly, it was. My husband

has gone into the air and I stand

at the counter peeling a clementine.

Small fruit, seedless, a little space between

skin and flesh makes it easy to take

apart. How can I be so ungrateful? We chose

the plant most likely to thrive in shade.

We chose the life most likely.

Putting Down the Dog

BY CHELSEA B. DESAUTELS

A lunar eclipse. Tomatoes ripped from their stalk. I went wobbly. Better than a day too late, the vet said. The choices we make for the dying. On the dying’s behalf. The old cottonwood that

snapped in the storm. The rawness, the softness of it exposed, what I’d expected to be jagged.

What I expected to be sharp. Strangers came with black bags and paperwork. She did not want

To lie down. The day I filled the truck bed with mossed granite. Then the noise from the

ground when I, sweating, hoisted the rock from the bed and let go. The scratched bed without

the rock. The rock, taken from the hills. The hills. The indented hills. Her heart was filling

with liquid. She was not a simple being. I have never loved anyone well enough.

Chelsea B. DesAutels is the author of A Dangerous Place (Sarabande Books), which was named a New York Times Editors’ Choice. Her work appears in Copper Nickel, Ploughshares, River Teeth, The Southern Review, and elsewhere, and has been featured on The Slowdown podcast. Recently, Chelsea’s work has been supported by fellowships to Bread Loaf Writers’ Conference and Yaddo. She is the founder of Freshwater Writing and lives with her family in Minneapolis.